The ceiling above me was white and cracked, like a map of a country that didn't exist. I knew this ceiling. I had been looking at it for six months, according to the woman in the white coat who called herself Dr. Drackett. Six months, she said. You've been here for six months. You don't remember any of it.

I remembered some of it. Not in lines or sequences, but in fragments—like a photograph dropped on concrete and scattered across the parking lot. A man in a gray suit. The smell of antiseptic. A woman's voice saying, "Aidan, look at me. Don't close your eyes." And blood. So much blood, but I couldn't tell you whose it was. Mine or someone else's.

My name is Aidan Cole. Or at least, that's what the doctor says. I don't remember choosing it. I don't remember anything before the white ceiling and the twelve scars and the feeling that someone had reached inside my head and rearranged the furniture while I was sleeping.

Dr. Drackett came in at eight, as she did every morning. She was in her fifties, with sharp eyes and a voice that was calm but not warm—like a surgeon explaining a procedure, not a person talking to another person.

"Good morning, Aidan," she said. "How are you sleeping?"

"I don't sleep," I said. "When I close my eyes, I see things. Bad things."

"Images?"

"Memories. Or things that feel like memories. I don't know the difference anymore."

She made a note in her file. "That's to be expected. Your brain is processing trauma. It's trying to make sense of things that may not be real."

"Not real?"

"Trauma can create false memories. Vivid, detailed, emotionally powerful memories that never actually happened. It's one of the things we're trying to understand."

I looked at my wrist. The scars were pink and raised, arranged in a pattern that looked almost intentional—like someone had taken a blade and made twelve deliberate cuts, each one spaced evenly, each one placed with care.

"Who did this to me?" I asked.

Dr. Drackett paused. "Aidan, we've talked about this. You may have been involved in an incident. A violent one. The question is whether you were the victim or the perpetrator."

The word landed like a stone in still water. Perpetrator. The man who does the thing. The one who picks up the knife. The one who pulls the trigger.

"I don't think I'm a murderer," I said.

"I didn't say you were," she said. "I said we don't know."

I closed my eyes. When I closed my eyes, I saw a room with white walls and a metal table and a woman lying on the table, and her eyes were open and they were blue and they were looking at me and she was saying my name—Aidan—and then there was blood and I couldn't tell if it was hers or mine and I couldn't tell if I had hurt her or if I had been trying to save her and—

"Aidan." Drackett's voice, distant, like it was coming through water. "Open your eyes."

I opened them. The white ceiling. The cracked plaster. The woman in the white coat.

"I need to leave," I said.

"Aidan, you're not ready."

"I don't think I'll ever be ready."

She studied me for a long moment. Then she closed her file. "You have supervised visitation privileges. You can walk around the grounds with Nurse Patterson. But you don't leave the facility."

"I know the rules."

"Do you? Because last time you 'knew the rules,' you climbed out a window and walked three miles through the woods in the middle of a thunderstorm."

"That was different."

"How was it different?"

I didn't answer. Because I couldn't explain it. When I climbed out that window, I hadn't decided to climb out. My body just moved. Like it had a memory I didn't have. Like someone else was driving.

Nurse Patterson was a tall man with a gentle face and hands that shook slightly, like he was always holding back from grabbing something. He walked beside me as I toured the grounds of the facility—a brick building surrounded by trees and a parking lot and a fence that I was pretty sure wasn't high enough to keep anyone in but was definitely high enough to keep anyone out.

"Nice day," Patterson said.

"It's raining," I said. It was. A steady Boston drizzle that turned everything gray.

"Right," he said. "Gray day. Nice gray day."

We walked past the main building, around to the parking lot, and that's when I saw her.

She was standing by a silver sedan, talking to a man in a gray suit. She had dark hair cut short, and she was wearing a red coat that stood out against the gray like a wound. And when she turned her head, I saw her face.

It was my face.

Not exactly—softer, warmer, a face that belonged to a woman instead of a man. But the eyes. The same eyes. The same shape of the jaw. The same mouth that looked like it was trying to decide whether to smile or cry.

She looked at me. And I knew, with a certainty that bypassed thought and went straight to something deeper, that I had seen her before. In a white room. On a metal table. With blood and her eyes open and her blue eyes looking at me and saying my name.

"Aidan," Patterson said. "Come back inside."

I took one step toward the woman. The man in the gray suit looked up. His eyes met mine, and something passed between us—recognition, or warning, or both.

I stopped. I turned back to Patterson. We walked inside.

But I knew her. I didn't know how I knew her. I didn't know why her face was carved into the inside of my skull like a word I couldn't unlearn.

I knew her.

And I knew that when I saw her again, the answers would start coming. Or the madness. Possibly both.

That night, in the white room with the cracked ceiling, I pressed my fingers to the twelve scars on my wrist and tried to count them. One. Two. Three. Twelve.

Twelve scars. Twelve memories. Twelve versions of a story that might not be mine.

I closed my eyes and counted again.

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