The autumn wind coming down Fifth Avenue carried the particular cold of a New York that no longer exists, or perhaps never did exist except in the spaces between people who live next door to each other and don't know it. Thomas stood at the window of their apartment on West 74th Street—two doors from Ed's—and watched the streetlights flicker on one by one, like soldiers falling in a line he had once believed in.

Inside, the apartment smelled of scotch and something else: the smell of a man thinking about something he can't think his way out of.

Thomas Blackwell was thirty-one years old, which in 1924 meant he was old. He had been to France. He had seen men die in places with French names that sounded like poetry and ended like slaughter: Champagne, the Marne, Verdun—and he had come back to New York, to his养父's banking firm on Wall Street, where the men in their charcoal suits spoke about the war the way one speaks about a toothache that has finally been extracted: briefly, efficiently, without admitting it had hurt.

His养父, Mr. Harrington Blackwell, had found him at ten years old standing in the rain outside aPennsylvania Railroad station, carrying nothing but a canvas bag with a shirt and a photograph of a woman Thomas didn't remember. Harrington had taken him in, given him a name, sent him to prep school, and taught him that the world was a machine and the men who understood how it worked were the ones who got to turn the handles.

Thomas understood the machine. He understood it too well.

The door opened. Edmund Calloway—Ed to everyone who mattered, Calloway to everyone who didn't—walked in with two glasses and a bottle of Macallan that cost more than most men earned in a month.

Ed was twenty-eight, Ivy League, heir to a fortune built on railroad money and inherited guilt. The Calloways had been on the wrong side of the Civil War for three generations, and Ed carried that shame the way a man carries a stone in his shoe: not enough to stop him walking, but enough that he felt it with every step.

"Barry White sent me the latest on the Japanese bonds," Ed said, setting a glass on the windowsill beside Thomas. "Risky. I love it."

Thomas took the glass. He wasn't drinking. He was holding it because holding something was different from drinking it.

"I went to the park today," Ed said. "Central Park. The same bench we used to sit on in college, when we were idiots and believed in things like justice and honor and—God help me—truth."

Thomas looked at him. Ed's face was doing that thing it did when he was about to say something serious: the left corner of his mouth twitched, the way it always did, and his eyes went flat and bright the way glass goes flat and bright before it breaks.

"I'm serious," Ed said. "I went to the bench. I sat there and I thought about what you said to me in the trenches at Argonne, when the shelling started and you grabbed me by the collar and said 'Edmund, if we die here, I want you to know that I think you're the smartest man I've ever met, and that it's a damn tragedy you're going to waste it arguing about poetry.'"

Thomas remembered. He remembered the mud, the smell of cordite, Ed's hands shaking so badly he couldn't light his cigarette. He remembered thinking: this man, this ridiculous, brilliant, beautiful man, will be the last person I see alive.

"I didn't think you'd remember that," Thomas said.

"I remember everything," Ed said. He sat down on the windowsill, crossed his legs the way a gentleman sits in his own drawing room—which is what he was, always, even here, even now: a gentleman in a man's apartment on a Tuesday night, drinking scotch with a war hero who didn't want to drink it. "Thomas, I need to ask you something."

Thomas looked out at Fifth Avenue again. A taxi splashed through a puddle. Somewhere below, a jazz band was playing something fast and desperate.

"Ask me anything," Thomas said.

"Do you believe any of it means anything? The war? The bonds? Harrington's speeches about America's destiny? Do you believe that any of it is—anything but noise?"

The question hung in the air between them, and Thomas felt something shift inside him the way a ship feels the tide shift: imperceptibly to everyone else, devastatingly to the man who is standing on deck.

He thought about France. He thought about the men he had seen die—not heroically, not meaningfully, but stupidly and wetly and too fast, the way a man falls when the ground decides he doesn't belong to it anymore. He thought about coming home to Wall Street and watching men who had never left Manhattan shake hands and talk about "national interest" and "global stability" the way one talks about the weather. He thought about the dinner parties where men wore white ties and spoke about eugenics and Prohibition and the soul of America, and none of them had ever smelled a corpse in the mud of the Argonne.

"I used to believe it," Thomas said quietly. "When I was in France. I believed that we were fighting for something. That the men we were fighting against were evil, and we were good, and if we won, the world would be better. I believed that because I had to believe it. Because the alternative was sitting down in the mud and not getting up."

"And now?"

Thomas turned from the window. Ed was looking at him with those flat-bright eyes, and Thomas understood what Ed had brought here tonight: not scotch, not jazz records, not even the quiet companionship of two men who had survived the same war together. Ed had brought something rarer. He had brought the question that Thomas had been running from since he came home.

"Now," Thomas said, "I believe that the world is a machine, and Harrington was right about that. But I also believe that the men who turn the handles don't know what machine it is. They think they're turning a machine that makes prosperity, or freedom, or greatness. But I think they're turning a machine that makes noise. Loud, beautiful, terrible noise. And we're standing inside it, clapping our hands because the music is so magnificent we can't hear the grinding gears."

Ed set his glass down. His hand was shaking. Not from the scotch—from the truth.

"Then what do we do?" Ed said.

Thomas thought about this for a long time. The jazz band below had changed songs. Now they were playing something slow and sad, the way New York plays sad music when it wants to make you feel something without having to say what it is.

"I don't know what we do," Thomas said. "But I know what I'm not going to do. I'm not going to sit in this room tomorrow and listen to Harrington talk about bonds and destiny and the machine that makes the noise. I'm going to pack a bag."

Ed stared at him. "Where?"

"I don't know. New Mexico, maybe. I've always wanted to see the desert. I've always wanted to stand somewhere where the horizon goes on forever and there's no machine and no noise and no one turning any handles."

Ed stood up. He walked to the window and looked out at Fifth Avenue, at the streetlights, at the people rushing home through the rain, at the city that had consumed so many dreams and returned nothing but noise.

"I'll come with you," Ed said.

Thomas turned to look at him. Ed was smiling, but it wasn't his usual ironic smile. It was something else: the smile of a man who has finally, after a very long time of carrying a stone in his shoe, decided to take off his shoe and dump out the stone.

"Ed, your father—"

"My father can wait. My father has waited his whole life. Let him wait one more week while his son goes to see the desert."

Thomas felt something in his chest unclench. It was the first time in three years—since France, since the mud and the noise and the dying—that he felt his chest unclench.

"New Mexico," Thomas said.

"New Mexico," Ed agreed.

They stood at the window together, two men from different worlds who had found each other in a trench in France and never separated since, watching the city pulse and hum and make its magnificent terrible noise. Outside, Fifth Avenue went on forever, and inside, for the first time in a long time, there was silence.

Not empty silence. The silence of a man who has finally stopped running from a question and has learned, at last, how to sit with it.

The machine would keep turning. But not tonight. Tonight, two men in an apartment on West 74th Street decided to walk out the door and into the rain, and that, for one night, was enough.

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