Fifty-Six Days of Nothing

The apartment had a smell that Kay could not place. It was not unpleasant, exactly. It was the smell of a room where someone lives alone and does not think about the smell. It was the smell of dishes in a sink that had stopped being dishes three weeks ago and had become something else—something geological, something that had layers the way a canyon has layers, each layer a meal that had been covered by another meal that had been covered by a paper towel and a rubber band and a kind of denial that Kay understood.

It was 2:17 AM on a Sunday in November. Kay had been walking for six hours. The walk had started as a way to pass the time and had become, somewhere past 1 AM, a way to pass the life. Detroit in November is a city of empty lots and full streets at wrong times, and Kay had walked both. They had walked past a Dollar General with fluorescent lights so bright they made the parking lot look like a operating theatre. They had walked past a strip mall where every store was either closed or selling something that was closing. They had walked past a bar on Vernor where a group of men were laughing at something that was not funny and laughing hard anyway, because laughter is a thing you do when you are together and the alternative is to stand in silence and think about the day before yesterday and the day before that.

The door to Dan Reed&x27;s apartment was unlocked. Kay knew this because they tried it. It is a thing that homeless people learn: most doors are unlocked. Not because people are careless. Because the people who leave their doors unlocked are the people who are not expecting anyone to come in.

Kay had been expecting nothing. That was the point. They had a debt—$3,200, accumulated over four months of borrowing from people who would never call back, because calling back is a form of hope and Kay had stopped hoping at the point where the third month ended without the money appearing. They had an apartment they had stopped paying at the point where the landlord stopped leaving notes and started leaving the property manager, who was a different kind of absence. And they had a body that was tired in a way that sleep does not fix, because the tiredness was not in the body. It was in the space between the body and the world, the place where the world used to be and was not anymore.

They pushed the door open. The apartment was small. The furniture was minimal—not by choice, Kay assumed, but by necessity. A couch that had been a couch and was now something that you sat on when you needed to sit and could not find a chair. A table with a laptop on it. A kitchen that had a refrigerator and a microwave and a single plate stacked on top of a single bowl. A bedroom with a door that was closed, which was something Kay noticed and filed away under things that indicate a person lives alone and would not want to be surprised.

Kay sat on the couch. The couch sagged in the middle, the way couches sag when someone sits on them for a long time every day. They closed their eyes. They opened them. They looked at the ceiling. The ceiling had water stains that looked like maps of places that did not exist.

The bedroom door opened.

A man stood there, maybe forty, maybe older, wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt and the expression of someone who has been interrupted from a thought he was not enjoying.

"Can I help you?" he said. Not angry. Not afraid. Just a question, the way a man asks a question at 2 AM when he has walked out of his bedroom and found a stranger on his couch and he is trying to figure out whether this is a burglary or a conversation.

"Sorry," Kay said. "The door was unlocked."

"That's a problem I've been meaning to fix."

"Maybe fix it now."

Dan Reed looked at them. Really looked. Not at the clothes—which were clothes that said a thing about money but not the whole thing, because clothes say many things and money is only one of them. Not at the face—which was a face that said a thing about survival but not the whole thing, because faces say many things and survival is only one of them. He looked at the tiredness. The tiredness is the thing that is hardest to hide. It is in the eyes and in the shoulders and in the way a person sits on a couch in a stranger's apartment at 2 AM because the alternative is to stand on a street corner and watch the traffic and count the cars and pretend that counting is a way of living.

"Do you want coffee?" he asked.

Kay blinked. "What?"

"Coffee. I have coffee. It's not good coffee. It's the kind of coffee you drink when you're alone and you don't care about the quality. Want some?"

"I don't—" Kay started. Then stopped. The truth was that they wanted something. They wanted a thing so basic and so simple that it took them a moment to identify it. It was not coffee. It was the act of someone offering something and not asking for anything in return. It was the act of being treated like a person who might want coffee rather than a person who might take the laptop.

"Yes," they said.

He went into the kitchen. Kay heard the refrigerator open and close. The microwave beeped. A cup was filled with something that sounded like liquid. He came back and set the cup on the table in front of them. It was a chipped mug with a logo from a company that had gone out of business in 2009.

"It's instant," he said. "I know."

"I know what instant is," Kay said. And they did. They knew everything about instant. They knew the taste and the smell and the way it looks in a cup when it first hits the water and then the way it looks after you stir it and it still looks the same, because some things do not change when you stir them.

They drank the coffee. It was hot. It was bitter. It was the kind of thing that is not meant to be enjoyed but is meant to be had. They had it.

"Why are you here?" he asked. Not accusatory. Curious. The way a person asks a question when they are genuinely trying to understand.

"I was walking," Kay said.

"Everyone's walking these days."

"That's not true."

"It is for you."

Kay did not answer. The coffee was cooling in the cup. They held it with both hands the way a person holds something warm in a room that is not warm.

"I can't stay," they said.

"Obviously."

"I just—" They stopped. The word was in their mouth and they were not sure whether to swallow it or spit it out. "I just needed to sit somewhere."

"I know what that's like."

"You don't. You have a couch and a laptop and a fridge and coffee."

"Maybe I know more than you think."

They looked at him. He was looking at the laptop screen. The screen was dark. He had turned it off without saying anything. It was a small thing—a person turning off a screen and looking at a stranger instead of looking at a screen while talking to a stranger—and Kay noticed it and filed it away under things that indicate a person is choosing, in small ways, to be in the room instead of elsewhere.

"Who are you?" he asked.

"Kay."

"Kay what?"

"Just Kay."

"Okay, Kay. I'm Dan."

"I know. You live here."

"How do you know that?"

"Your stuff is in the bedroom. Your laptop is on the table. Your coffee is in the kitchen. Your door was locked before I got here, and then it wasn't, which means you're the kind of person who leaves their door unlocked when they're home."

He smiled. It was a small smile. It did not reach his eyes, but it was there, and it was a thing.

"What do you do, Kay?"

"I don't."

"Don't what?"

"Do things. I don't have a job. I don't have an apartment. I don't have—I don't have things."

"That's a lot of things not to have."

"It's not a lot. It's three things. Three things and a debt."

"What's the debt for?"

"Everything. Nothing. The space between."

He was quiet for a long time. The refrigerator kicked on. The sound was loud in the small apartment, the way sounds are loud in small apartments at 2 AM.

"You can sleep on the couch," he said.

Kay looked up. "What?"

"The couch. You can sleep on it. It's not comfortable but it's not a street. The door gets locked at 6 PM. The building manager doesn't ask questions. The elevator is broken. None of that matters to you. You already know about broken things."

Kay did not move. The coffee had gone cold. They set the cup down on the table and looked at their hands. Their hands were the hands of a person who has been holding things and has stopped holding them and does not know what to do with empty hands.

"Why?" they asked.

"Because you asked for coffee and I gave you coffee and that's the kind of night that turns into this kind of night. Because the couch is sagging in the middle and it's sagging for one person and one person is enough. Because I've sat on that couch alone and watched the water stains on the ceiling and they look like maps of places that don't exist and I know what that's like."

Kay closed their eyes. They opened them. The room was the same. The coffee was the same. The laptop was still off. The bedroom door was still closed. But something had changed—a small thing, a thing that cannot be measured or named or held in the hands the way a cup of coffee can be held, but that changes the shape of the room the way a person changes the shape of a room by sitting in it.

"Okay," Kay said. And the word was not agreement and it was not acceptance and it was not surrender. It was just the word that comes when there is no other word and the cup is empty and the couch is there and the night is long and the nothing is everything and the everything is nothing and fifty-six days is a number that means something and means nothing and means exactly what it says it means: fifty-six days of nothing, and the nothing is enough, or it isn't, and you don't know which, and you don't ask, because asking is a form of hope and you have stopped hoping and the coffee was instant and it was bitter and it was hot and it was had.

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