The Lighthouse Keeper of Starfall Isle

Entry the twelfth of March, 1847

I write this by the light of a candle made of tallow and pig fat, the smell of which mixes with the salt air in a manner I cannot abide. The candle burns low. My hand shakes. If anyone finds this book—this diary, this confession of a lie I have told for sixteen years—tell my mother. I was not a boy. I was a daughter. I never forgot who I was.

The wind has been howling since noon. It sounds like the night Father discovered me in the library, the Latin primer open to a page I had been reading by secret. He did not strike me. He simply looked at me with that terrible quiet look, the one that meant I was already dead to him. Go to India, he said. Go to Aunt Clara. Pretend to be the nephew she never had. No one will ask questions. No one will care.

He was wrong about one thing. Everyone cares. Everyone cares very much.

We reached the island three days ago, or perhaps four. Time has lost its meaning aboard the Heraclitus, that cursed merchant vessel bound for Bombay. The storm came without warning—not gradually, the way the sailors described in their sea tales, but all at once, as though the sky had been torn open. I remember the sound of timbers cracking like rifle shots. I remember the water rising through the cabin floor, cold and black and smelling of deep things.

Captain Merriweather stood at the railing, his coat flapping behind him like the wings of some great bird. He looked calm. Of course he looked calm. His father was a Rear Admiral of the Royal Navy. Calmness is in the blood.

When the light broke on the morning after—the morning I woke in the sand with salt in my mouth and the taste of iron behind my eyes—I counted twelve of us. Twelve children, ranging from the eight-year-old boy with the mark on his face, whom I had already begun calling Little Billy, to Captain Merriweather himself, who was fourteen and carried himself like a man twice his age.

The first thing I found was the lamp.

It lay half-buried in the sand, a brass cylinder about two feet long, its glass prisms cracked but still catching the sunlight in fragments of gold. I had seen similar objects in my father's study—diagrams of lighthouses, maps of the world's coastal beacons. This had been mounted atop a tower. Now only the base remained: a stone foundation covered in barnacles and the bones of small crabs.

I carried it to the others. They were waking slowly, spreading across the beach like the limbs of a creature that had been dropped and was gathering itself.

"What is it?" asked Julian Frost, brushing sand from a waistcoat that had been fine silk before the sea claimed it.

"A light," I said. And then, because I understood already what it meant, I added: "We can signal with this."

No one asked where we were. No one asked how we would be rescued. They simply accepted the lamp as I offered it, the way they accepted everything Captain Merriweather said. He took the lamp from my hands, examined it with a professional air, and declared that we would build a fire atop the highest point of the island and use the lamp to focus our signal.

It was the first order he gave as Chief. I felt something shift in me—a warmth, a foolish hope. This boy, this stranger, understood the world the way it ought to be understood. Rules. Structure. Purpose.

He did not know me. No one knew me. Elizabeth Ashworth died somewhere between the English Channel and the storm. In her place was a boy named "Bess," thin and quiet and unremarkable, exactly the kind of boy a family would send away to India and expect not to be missed.

But Captain Merriweather's voice was warm. He looked at me and said, "You seem the observant one, Bess. Will you help me find the highest ground?"

I nodded. And so began the long walk inland, through palms and thickets and rocks sharp as knives, while behind us the others began to argue about food and shelter and the boy with the mark on his face, who had been standing at the water's edge, staring out at the sea, whispering the same thing over and over:

"It's coming. It's coming from the water."

Entry the twentieth of March, 1847

We have built three huts. They are terrible huts, made of palm fronds and driftwood, but they stand. Captain Merriweather organized the work with military precision. Those who refused to work were told to find their own food. No one refused.

I have begun to notice things. Small things. The way Captain Merriweather watches the others when he thinks no one is looking. The way Julian Frost calculates everything—how many coconuts each person should receive, how many days the firewood will last, how many days until rescue arrives. He carries a small book in which he records these calculations. I have tried to read it but he closes it quickly, like a man guarding secrets.

And then there is Tommy Blackwood.

Tommy is thirteen, slight of build, with eyes that take in everything and a mouth that never seems to know what to say. He followed me when Captain Merriweather and I went inland that first day, and he has stayed close ever since. He is gentle in a world that is rapidly becoming less so.

Yesterday, we were collecting firewood near the eastern ridge when he stopped suddenly and pointed into the bushes. Something moved—a shape, low to the ground, dark against the green.

"What is it?" I asked.

He shook his head. "I don't know. But it looked—" He searched for the word. "It looked like it was watching us."

That night, I wrote in my diary: Tommy saw something in the bushes. When I asked what, he would not say. His hands were shaking. I believe him.

Entry the first of April, 1847

The lamp has gone dark.

Not metaphorically. The candle that Julian and I have been using to focus the lamp's beam—its wick is spent. We tried to make more candles from whale fat that washed ashore, but the mixture is foul-smelling and produces only a thin, wavering light. The signal fire burns, but without the lamp, it is merely a fire. Anyone watching from the sea would see smoke, perhaps, on a clear day, but no focused beam. No deliberate signal.

Captain Merriweather was furious. Not at the situation—at me. "If you had paid more attention to the candle supply," he said, "we would not be in this position."

I did not argue. There is no point. He needs someone to blame. Without the lamp, without the fire, without rescue, he is just a boy on an island. And I am just a boy who pretends to be one.

But Tommy knows. He knows something. Last night, in the darkness, he sat beside me by the fire and said, quietly: "You don't have to pretend with me, Bess."

My heart stopped. I looked at him, and he looked back at me with an expression I could not read—pity? recognition?—and then he said, "But I won't tell anyone. You're a good hunter."

He had no idea what he had almost said.

Entry the fourteenth of April, 1847

Something terrible has happened.

Three nights ago, we found the carcass on the northern beach. It was a sea lion, or something like one, but massive—twice the size of any I have seen in prints. It had been torn apart, its skull cracked open, and placed upon a stake driven into the sand. Flies covered its face in a living mask.

Julian called it a trophy. Captain Merriweather called it "unfortunate." Tommy called it nothing at all. He simply stood before it, his face pale, and did not move for a long time.

That night, during the Council—which Captain Merriweather still insists upon holding, though the children come late and leave early and talk over one another—the boy with the mark on his face stood up and said: "I saw it tonight. I saw what's on the island. It's not a beast. It's something else. It's in the trees. It's watching us."

They laughed. All of them. Even Julian laughed. Even Captain Merriweather tried not to laugh and failed.

But I did not laugh. Because I have seen it too.

Last week, I was walking alone near the central ridge—the one we have not yet climbed—when I heard a sound. Not an animal. Not the wind. A voice. Human. Whispering.

I followed it through the thickets until I found nothing. Only the smell of something rotting and a patch of ground where the earth had been turned over, as though something large had been dragged across it.

I told no one.

Tonight, after the Council broke up and the children scattered to their huts, I went to the beach and stood before the sea lion's skull. The flies had moved on. What remained of the skull was bleached white in the moonlight, and its eye sockets were empty and dark.

I whispered into the darkness: "If there is something on this island, I am not afraid of it. I am afraid of what we are becoming."

The wind answered. Or perhaps it was the voice I heard last week, rising from the earth.

Entry the twenty-second of April, 1847

Little Billy is gone.

He disappeared during the night. Someone—Julian, I think—had the idea of climbing the central ridge at dawn to look for the "best point" for our signal. He was right about the ridge. At the summit, on a clear day, one could see the entire southern Pacific. The view was breathtaking.

But Little Billy did not make it back.

We found his shoe on the path down the eastern slope. A small shoe, made of leather, worn at the toes. Beside it, a trail of small footprints leading into the bamboo thicket. We followed them for some distance, until the thicket became too dense and the footprints ended at the edge of a cliff.

Below the cliff, the sea dropped away into darkness.

Captain Merriweather declared that Billy had fallen. Julian marked this on his map. Tommy stood at the edge of the cliff for a very long time and said nothing.

That night, I wrote the last entry I intended to write. The candle is nearly spent. The lamp is dark. The sea lion's skull still stands on the beach, though the flies have returned.

I hear something in the darkness now. Not a voice. Not an animal. Something that sounds like—like singing. A hymn. From the other side of the island.

Captain Merriweather has stopped holding Council. He spends his days climbing the ridge and scanning the horizon with the cracked brass tube that was once part of the lamp. Julian has stopped calculating. He sits by the fire and stares at his book. Tommy follows me everywhere now, as though afraid I will disappear.

I have started waking at night. I lie in my hut and listen to the wind and the sea and the singing that comes from across the island. Sometimes I think I hear a voice calling my name. Not "Bess." My real name. Elizabeth.

If anyone finds this book, please tell my mother. I was not a boy. I was a daughter. I never forgot who I was. And I am afraid of what I have become.

The last light is fading. I will go to the beach and look at the sea lion's skull one last time. Perhaps I will hear the voice again.

Perhaps I will answer.

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