The Last Letter to L.A.

The phone rang at 2:47 in the morning, which is the only time phones ring if you live in a city that has forgotten how to sleep. I picked up the receiver and listened to a voice that belonged to a man I had never heard of telling me that Diane Cross had been found dead in her apartment on Sunset Boulevard. The official cause was an accidental overdose of sleeping pills. The unofficial cause, as I was about to discover, was whatever the Cross family said it was.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Morrison. There's nothing you can do about it."

There was always something you could do about it. That's what I told myself as I pulled on my coat and stepped out into the Los Angeles rain. It was 1947, and the rain in this city didn't wash anything clean. It just made the grime slicker.

Diane Cross was a typist at the Federal Insurance Agency. She was also, as I discovered in the six weeks between meeting her and finding her body, one of the best poets I had ever read. She wrote on the backs of carbon paper, in a small black notebook she kept in her desk drawer beneath a stack of typed memos. I found this notebook three days after her funeral, slipped into my coat pocket by a woman who looked at me the way a woman looks at a man who is standing between her and the truth.

Her name was Evelyn Cross-Montgomery. She was Diane's sister-in-law and my fiancée's cousin, which in Los Angeles meant she knew everything and was obligated to tell me nothing. She was the kind of beautiful woman who wore black like armor.

"She was sick," Evelyn said. "That's all you need to know. She took too many pills. I'm sorry, Jack."

"You're not sorry enough to tell me why a Federal Insurance investigator's sister-in-law would need to take sleeping pills in the first place."

Evelyn stood up from the chair in her living room, the one that cost more than my first car. "Because she was unhappy, Jack. Because she had reasons. And because you are standing in my house telling me things I cannot allow you to say out loud."

I left. I went home. I opened the notebook.

The first poem read: Jack sits in his car on Crenshaw Boulevard and smokes cigarettes he doesn't want and tells himself he's done. But he's not done. He'll never be done. That's the problem with men like Jack. They think the world is a case they can close. The world doesn't work like that. The world is a case that never closes. It just accumulates.

I sat in my apartment for a long time. The cigarette burned down to the filter. The rain tapped on the window like someone trying to get my attention. I lit another cigarette.

The investigation began the way all bad investigations begin: with a single question that refuses to be ignored. Why had Diane Cross, a twenty-six-year-old typist with no history of mental illness and no known enemies, died of a sleeping pill overdose in a locked apartment with no signs of forced entry?

The police report said accidental. The coroner's report said accidental. The letter Diane had left on her desk, addressed to no one, said nothing of the kind. It read: If you're reading this, I didn't take them. I don't know who did. But I know who wanted me to. And I know why. The insurance files in my desk drawer – the ones about the Meridian Clinic – they tell the story. Don't let them bury it.

The Meridian Clinic. I'd heard the name. Evelyn's uncle, Lieutenant Harlan Cross, sat on the board. So did my boss, who was also my fiancée's uncle, the man who had pulled strings to get me onto the case that led me to Diane in the first place. A routine audit of a claims adjustment. A woman who could read the fine print in a claim file the way other women read novels. A conversation that lasted from three in the afternoon until midnight, over coffee that grew cold and cigarettes that grew shorter.

I went to Diane's apartment. The police had been through it, but not carefully. I found the insurance files in the desk drawer, exactly where she said they would be. Meridian Clinic. Claims adjustment. Eighty-three claims denied in six months, all of them for pre-existing conditions, all of them reviewed and approved by a physician who was also Lieutenant Cross's brother-in-law. Eighty-three claims. Eighty-three people who couldn't get the treatment they needed because a man in a suit decided their sickness wasn't real.

Diane had found the pattern. Someone had found out.

The confrontation happened the way confrontations happen in Los Angeles: in a parking garage at midnight, under a single flickering light, between two men who both knew the other was right and neither of them could do anything about it.

My boss was waiting for me in the garage. He was a large man with a face that had been carved by decades of saying no.

"You're poking things that don't want to be poked, Jack," he said.

"I know what the Meridian files say."

"Then you know why they can't be poked. Some things are buried for a reason. You tear them up, you bring the whole building down on your head."

"Diane died."

"She made bad choices. That's the story in this town. People make bad choices. Some of them cost more than others."

He stepped closer. The light above us buzzed like a fly trapped in a bottle. "Here's the thing, Jack. You have a fiancée. You have a future. You have a career that's going somewhere. Diane Cross had nothing. And even with everything she had, she still made bad choices. Don't make hers."

I looked at him. I looked at the rain running down the concrete wall. I thought about Diane at the piano, playing music nobody asked her to play but everybody stopped to hear anyway.

I went home. I opened the notebook. I read the last poem: Jack thinks he has a choice. He doesn't. None of us do. The city makes the choices for us. The rain makes the choices. The dark makes the choices. We just pretend we're the ones holding the pen.

I picked up the phone. I called the Times.

The story ran on a Sunday. It was the second story on the front page, beneath a photograph of the mayor shaking hands with a general and above an advertisement for a new Cadillac. It was six columns of text and three names: Diane Cross, Lieutenant Harlan Cross, and the Meridian Clinic.

Evelyn called me that afternoon. I didn't answer. She left a message on the answering service: Jack, please. I'm sorry about Diane. I didn't know. Call me back.

I didn't call her back. I went to Diane's apartment one last time. I took the black notebook from my coat pocket and placed it on her desk, exactly where she had kept it. I sat in the chair she had sat in and looked out the window at the street below, at the people walking in the rain, at the city that had made its choice and was now going to make another.

The rain tapped on the glass. Somewhere, a piano played a jazz number. Someone laughed. The city did not stop.

I picked up the phone and dialed the only number I knew by heart. It rang once. Twice. On the third ring, it went to voicemail, and I hung up before I could leave a message, because there was nothing left to say.

The rain kept falling.

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